hmm..something just cut into my heart..that makes me feel kinda bad..which is..a group of word said by my girlfriend..she said.."每天都讲到自己很有钱这样.."wat really grabbed my heart is..you are right..i'm not rich..i'm poor..not even RM5 is in the pocket when we go out..I don't want to let you know that i'm an empty pocket guy..I don't want you to think that i'm...useless..as if i really am..these word reminds me and was crafted inside my mind..that i will work hard..for these very words of yours..
I thank you that you hurt me..which makes me even stronger and tougher..I feel like even wanna work harder so that you can have your own "bra boutique",your own changing room in our dream house..travel to places that you can shop crazyly..haha..
I don't whether my understanding on you is right or wrong..that actually..you want nothing at all..you just want me to be good..a good man..that love you..and protect..as for those dreams of yours..if you think..giving you those things can prove to you that i really do love you..well then..it's not a bad idea to work hard for..eh?
Yet,back to the topic..i know..these words of yours..maybe it's just a draft or something you said without thinking..but..I still accept them..to come into my life..hm?I promise..i will work..hard..I will..
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Thursday, October 9, 2008
::2nd high school gathering in JJ::
It's around 10pm that night,and i was solo performing on the stage..Well..buddies came..haha..They came to support me..mana tau ended up..we sang together and had so much fun together..wakaka..BEST~This is the pictures of us..ENJOY~
This is thiam huat's idea..a formal school photoshooting pose..= =.
This is me..dedicating different songs to different of them..
Hee..just for fun..
Missed out hong chin edi..because he's holding the camera..
Kah Loon and che wei singing..Thiam Huat like flash inside there...movement so fast...hahahaha..
We had so much fun singing..until what time you know??2 am leh!!!SIAO ar these guys..
This is thiam huat's idea..a formal school photoshooting pose..= =.
This is me..dedicating different songs to different of them..
Hee..just for fun..
Missed out hong chin edi..because he's holding the camera..
Kah Loon and che wei singing..Thiam Huat like flash inside there...movement so fast...hahahaha..We had so much fun singing..until what time you know??2 am leh!!!SIAO ar these guys..
Thursday, August 14, 2008
::Having Great Time In JJ::
Well..I am recently working in JJ Music..which is my cousin's pub..I work as a waiter..bartender..and a cashier here..Well..It's a new pub..so..kinda free every afternoon..so I took alot of pictures of myself..I even take pictures with my cousin..always did that..= =..
Come lar find me sometime..= =..The pub is located in the Yulek Business centre..The shop is purplish in colour..Very obvious 1...So when u came in to the yulek business centre..U will see..
Come lar find me sometime..= =..The pub is located in the Yulek Business centre..The shop is purplish in colour..Very obvious 1...So when u came in to the yulek business centre..U will see..
Thursday, August 7, 2008
::Rhythm::
I believe people who know me..knew that I am a music lover..I love to sing..I love to listen to music..I love music..I myself didn't know the reason why I love music so much..Before I start..I wanna say that I don't like ROCK!!evil devilish songs eh..I love pure..romantic..touching..soft..smooth..joy and happy songs..It's a way for me to express my heart..I am a guy who likes to use some songs to express my mood..When I miss someone..I will sing songs like Take me to your heart,Home..When I need motivation..I will sing..erm..some of David Tao's song which relaxes my mind with a friendly rhythmic..If you get know me..you will always see me tapping my feet or creating beats using hands and fingers to make myself into the songs..Sometime I even participate myself fully into a song..As in the song gives out the messages I wanna express..Well..sometimes i even called my girlfriend accidentally for getting so into the music,tapping my thigh which my mobile phone is inside my pocket without realize..It's just so natural that I will follow the music..I can't sing well..but i just love to..haha..I will sing to my girlfriend sometime..So i practice alot..haha..
::My Touching Story::
She have a boyfriend who grew up with her. She always thought of him as a friend until last year, when they went to a trip from a society. She found that She fell in love with him. Before that trip was over, She took a step and confessed her love for him. And soon, they became a pair of lovers, but they loved each other in different ways. She always concentrated on him only, but by his side, there were so many other girls. To her, he was the only one, but to him, she was just another girl.
Do you want to go watch a movie? she asked.
He: "I can't"
Why? You need to study at home?She felt disappointment grabbing her.
No I am going to meet a friend.
He was always like that. He met girls in front of her, like it was nothing. To him, She was just a girlfriend. The word "love" only came out from her mouth. Since she knew him, she had never heard him say "I love you" before. To them, there weren't any anniversaries at all. He didn't say anything from the first day and it continued till 100 days,200 days. Everyday, before they say goodbye, he would just hand her a doll, everyday, without fail. She don't know why. Then one day...
She : Um, I...
He : What?don't drag, just say..
She : I love you.
He : you...um, just take this doll and go home.
That was how he ignored her three words and handed her the doll. Then he disappeared, like he was running away. The dolls she received from him everyday, filled her room, one by one. There were many... Then one day came, her 19th year old birthday. When she got up in the morning, she pictured a party with him, and stranded herself in her room, waiting for his call. But ...lunch passed, dinner passed...and soon the sky was dark he still didn't call. It was already tiring to look at the phone anymore. Then around 2am in the morning, he suddenly called and woke her from her sleep. He told her to come out of the house. Still, she felt joy and she ran out happily.
She : Hey...
He : Here...take this...
(Again, he handed her a little doll.)
She : What's this?
He : I didn't give it to you yesterday, so I am giving it to you now. I'm going home now, bye.
She : Wait, wait! Do you know what today is?
He : Today? Huh?
She felt so sad, she thought he would remember her birthday. He turned around and walked away like nothing had happen. when she shouted..."Wait!!!"
He : You have something to say?
She : Tell me, tell me you love me...
He : What?!
She : Tell me!!!
She put her pathetic self behind and clung on to him. But he just said simple cold words and left. "I don't want to say that I love someone so easily, if you are desperate to hear it, then find someone else." That was what he said.
Then he ran off. Her legs felt numb...and she collapsed to the ground. He didn't want to say it easily...How could he!. She felt that... Maybe he is not the right guy for her... After that day, she stranded herself at home crying, just crying. He didn't call her, although she was waiting. He just continued handing her a little doll every morning outside her house. That's how those dolls piled up in her room... everyday. After a month, she got herself together and went to school. But what made the pain resurface was that... She saw him on a street...with another girl...He had a smile on his face, one that he never showed her...as he touched the doll... She ran straight back home and looked at the dolls in her room, and tears fell...
Why did he gave these to me??
Those dolls are probably picked out by some other girls. In a fit of anger, She threw the dolls around.
Then suddenly, the phone rang. It was him. He told her to come out to the bus stop outside her house. She tried to calm herself down and walked to the bus stop. She kept reminding herself that she's going to forget him, that it's going to end. Then he came into her sight, holding a big doll.
He : I thought you were pissed, you really came?
She couldn't help hating him, acting like nothing had happen and joking around. Soon, he held out the doll as usual
She : I don't need it.
He : But?.why?
She grabbed the doll from his hands and threw it on the road.
She : I don't need this doll, I don't need it anymore!! I don't want to see a person like you again!I am suffered a lot for you!!Every time you turn your back on me after giving me these dolls!I feel irritated and my heart is crushed every time i saw you with your smile on your face while you are with others!!
She spitted out all the words that were inside her. But unlike other days, his eyes very shaking.
"I....am sorry..." He apologized in a tiny voice with his head down on the floor. He then walked over to the road to pick up the doll...
She : You stupid! Why are you picking up the doll?! Just throw it away!!!I don't want it!!
But he ignored her and just went to pick the doll.
Then...
HonkHonk!!
With a loud honk, a big truck was heading towards him.
"Move! Move away!!!" She shouted....
But he didn't hear her, he squatted down and picked up the doll, he turned and look at her..and he gave her a smile..
"NO!!!"
HhOOoooOONNKkk!! *!!BOMP!!*
That sound.....so terrifying.Everything slow down as in her eyes. That's how he went away from her.
That's how he went away without even opening his eyes to say one word to her. After that day, she have to go through everyday with guiltiness and the sadness of losing him. And after spending two months like a crazy person,she took out the dolls. Those were the only gifts he left her since the day they started going out.She remembered the days she spent with him and started to count the days- when they were in love..
"One...two... three..."
That was how she started to count the dolls...
"Four hundred and eighty four... four hundred and eighty five..."
It all ended with 485 dolls. She then started to cry again, with a doll in her arms. She hugged it tightly, then suddenly...
"I love you, I love you"
She dropped the dolls,shocked.
"I...lo..ve..you??"
She picked up the dolls and pressed its stomach.
"I love you I love you"
It can"t be!
She pressed all the dolls' stomach as it piled on the side.
"I love you"
"I love you"
"I love you"
Those words came out non-stop.
"I love you"
Why didn't I realize that???.
That his heart was always by my side, protecting me.
Why didn't I realize that he love me this much...
She took out the doll under the bed and pressed it's stomach, that was the last doll, the one that fell on the road. It had his blood stain on it.
The voice came out, the one that she was missing so much....
"Do you know what today is? We've been loving each other for 486 days. I couldn't say I love you..... Um... since I was too shy. If you forgive me and take this doll, I will say that I love you.. Everyday...till I die... I love you!"
The tears came flowing out of her. Why? Why? She asked God, why do I only know about all this now?
He can't be by my side, but he loved me until his last minute.
For that.. and for that reason... to her..... it became courage... to live a beautiful life...
Do you want to go watch a movie? she asked.
He: "I can't"
Why? You need to study at home?She felt disappointment grabbing her.
No I am going to meet a friend.
He was always like that. He met girls in front of her, like it was nothing. To him, She was just a girlfriend. The word "love" only came out from her mouth. Since she knew him, she had never heard him say "I love you" before. To them, there weren't any anniversaries at all. He didn't say anything from the first day and it continued till 100 days,200 days. Everyday, before they say goodbye, he would just hand her a doll, everyday, without fail. She don't know why. Then one day...
She : Um, I...
He : What?don't drag, just say..
She : I love you.
He : you...um, just take this doll and go home.
That was how he ignored her three words and handed her the doll. Then he disappeared, like he was running away. The dolls she received from him everyday, filled her room, one by one. There were many... Then one day came, her 19th year old birthday. When she got up in the morning, she pictured a party with him, and stranded herself in her room, waiting for his call. But ...lunch passed, dinner passed...and soon the sky was dark he still didn't call. It was already tiring to look at the phone anymore. Then around 2am in the morning, he suddenly called and woke her from her sleep. He told her to come out of the house. Still, she felt joy and she ran out happily.
She : Hey...
He : Here...take this...
(Again, he handed her a little doll.)
She : What's this?
He : I didn't give it to you yesterday, so I am giving it to you now. I'm going home now, bye.
She : Wait, wait! Do you know what today is?
He : Today? Huh?
She felt so sad, she thought he would remember her birthday. He turned around and walked away like nothing had happen. when she shouted..."Wait!!!"
He : You have something to say?
She : Tell me, tell me you love me...
He : What?!
She : Tell me!!!
She put her pathetic self behind and clung on to him. But he just said simple cold words and left. "I don't want to say that I love someone so easily, if you are desperate to hear it, then find someone else." That was what he said.
Then he ran off. Her legs felt numb...and she collapsed to the ground. He didn't want to say it easily...How could he!. She felt that... Maybe he is not the right guy for her... After that day, she stranded herself at home crying, just crying. He didn't call her, although she was waiting. He just continued handing her a little doll every morning outside her house. That's how those dolls piled up in her room... everyday. After a month, she got herself together and went to school. But what made the pain resurface was that... She saw him on a street...with another girl...He had a smile on his face, one that he never showed her...as he touched the doll... She ran straight back home and looked at the dolls in her room, and tears fell...Why did he gave these to me??
Those dolls are probably picked out by some other girls. In a fit of anger, She threw the dolls around.
Then suddenly, the phone rang. It was him. He told her to come out to the bus stop outside her house. She tried to calm herself down and walked to the bus stop. She kept reminding herself that she's going to forget him, that it's going to end. Then he came into her sight, holding a big doll.
He : I thought you were pissed, you really came?
She couldn't help hating him, acting like nothing had happen and joking around. Soon, he held out the doll as usual
She : I don't need it.
He : But?.why?
She grabbed the doll from his hands and threw it on the road.
She : I don't need this doll, I don't need it anymore!! I don't want to see a person like you again!I am suffered a lot for you!!Every time you turn your back on me after giving me these dolls!I feel irritated and my heart is crushed every time i saw you with your smile on your face while you are with others!!
She spitted out all the words that were inside her. But unlike other days, his eyes very shaking.
"I....am sorry..." He apologized in a tiny voice with his head down on the floor. He then walked over to the road to pick up the doll...
She : You stupid! Why are you picking up the doll?! Just throw it away!!!I don't want it!!
But he ignored her and just went to pick the doll.
Then...
HonkHonk!!
With a loud honk, a big truck was heading towards him.
"Move! Move away!!!" She shouted....
But he didn't hear her, he squatted down and picked up the doll, he turned and look at her..and he gave her a smile..
"NO!!!"
HhOOoooOONNKkk!! *!!BOMP!!*
That sound.....so terrifying.Everything slow down as in her eyes. That's how he went away from her.
That's how he went away without even opening his eyes to say one word to her. After that day, she have to go through everyday with guiltiness and the sadness of losing him. And after spending two months like a crazy person,she took out the dolls. Those were the only gifts he left her since the day they started going out.She remembered the days she spent with him and started to count the days- when they were in love..
"One...two... three..."
That was how she started to count the dolls...
"Four hundred and eighty four... four hundred and eighty five..."
It all ended with 485 dolls. She then started to cry again, with a doll in her arms. She hugged it tightly, then suddenly...
"I love you, I love you"
She dropped the dolls,shocked.
"I...lo..ve..you??"
She picked up the dolls and pressed its stomach.
"I love you I love you"
It can"t be!
She pressed all the dolls' stomach as it piled on the side.
"I love you"
"I love you"
"I love you"
Those words came out non-stop.
"I love you"
Why didn't I realize that???.
That his heart was always by my side, protecting me.
Why didn't I realize that he love me this much...
She took out the doll under the bed and pressed it's stomach, that was the last doll, the one that fell on the road. It had his blood stain on it.
The voice came out, the one that she was missing so much....
"Do you know what today is? We've been loving each other for 486 days. I couldn't say I love you..... Um... since I was too shy. If you forgive me and take this doll, I will say that I love you.. Everyday...till I die... I love you!"
The tears came flowing out of her. Why? Why? She asked God, why do I only know about all this now?
He can't be by my side, but he loved me until his last minute.
For that.. and for that reason... to her..... it became courage... to live a beautiful life...
::Tomorrow::
I am curious what's gonna happen every tomorrow in my life..I know we are all curious about it..but some they just live life as in the meaningless way..Well..What will come tomorrow..or I should ask what will happen tomorrow..For me..I believe in Christ..that we Christian always say Christ is coming soon..So my natural inquisitive pops-up suddenly asking..Will God come tomorrow?I am not prepared yet..But for me..it seems to get closer and closer already..Warnings like earthquakes,flood and other disasters..I know it happens in the past..but they are not that frequent but when we talk about the future which is not..Disaster warning is more and more..you see tsunami in Indonesia..you see earthquake in Taiwan,in China Sichuan,floods in Myanmar..war in US..all the places..well..its just so much of things happening not around us..but the world..Will there be another earthquake,war or flood..tsunami coming tomorrow?Well..I am a very tension guy who really thinks a lot in the negative way everytime I am alone..Well..I think I can stop from now..since i am not lonely anymore..Pass to you who wanna ask about tomorrow..Just live life in a meaningful way..Love the one around you..Love yourself..Peace..and God BLESS..
::For Life::
Studying and working hard only for living..I am supposed to be a very lazy person who don't really work or study hard..But after the opening of my cousin sister's bar and lounge, i am totally different for i have to help her to work as a waiter,bartender,and cashier ,resting in no time..Well..I have got experienced in working as a waiter and bartender so I can really help out sometimes..By the way,this is a family business..working together with relatives give a lot of encouragement and are motivated to work even harder..I am studying hard too for i have started my semester 3 in Interior Design..I study in the morning and i went for working after class immediately..Sometime its just so tiring for running here and there everyday..without having an afternoon nap(which i love to spend time on every single day.)I called myself working freak..but i am just doing only for living..I wonder how long i can hold on..It's not a healthy life but still I am very happy and i enjoy so much that I am independent enough..haha..God BLESS Me..
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